It's Pretty Obvious

So I have tested this, both on purpose and "by accident"... and it's surely not anything new. It's not a mystery. It's not a secret. It's not Brain Science or Rocket Surgery.

But anyway, I have discovered three set cases when it comes to my weight loss and fitness:

Case #1- Weighing around 125 or less, and feeling fit and thin (even though I'm not THIN in any way- like those skinny runway models- which isn't what I want). This requires exercising regularly (doesn't have to be as intense as the X- just has to be regular- 5-7 times a week) WITH eating right. This doesn't mean no treats at all- just not overeating the calories (good or bad calories) and making sure more of the calories are healthy ones. It means following Michi's Ladder at least the majority of the time. But this is maintained ONLY with eating right PLUS the exercise.

Case #2- Weighing around 130 and feeling comfortable. I don't feel 'thin' at this weight, though I can feel plenty fit. I prefer THIS spot, I think... though I like weighing less than this. It's just that this spot fits more into my regular lifestyle best. I can eat the junk, but not all the time. I can overeat on occasion. I can eat healthy the way I normally do- but not having to be strict about it. I can exercise regularly- 3-5 times a week and still maintain this. I can maintain this with one or the other, of the eating or exercise. If I don't eat right, but keep exercising, I can balance in this weight range. If I eat right, but stop exercising, I can also balance in this weight range. But if I trash both the eating AND the exercising, I can't maintain this range. I end up in the next range...

Case #3- Weight at 135 or over- and I feel thick and heavy and fat. I feel draggy and I'm disgusted with myself. Not a good place to be. This is the place I am when I don't eat right, don't watch the calorie intake, and don't exercise. This is the lazy spot. And it's not rocket science to know this, though for some reason... this spot still has a way of "sneaking up on you" because it only happens when you stop monitoring yourself and not watching. But it doesn't sneak. It comes as obvious as darkness comes when the day ends- because there is NO way anything different can happen when these factors are in place.

So where am I right now? I'm in Case #3. Ugh. But I know what I need to do, to get out of there, and back into Case #2 or #1... it's just that my motivation to get up and sweat is still not here. It's more "here" than it was this time last month though... so maybe there is hope. I'm still having a hard time with the "just DO it" attitude that I was so good at keeping a couple of years ago. Where did that attitude go? How did I have it, and hold it for so long back then? What's different now?

I'll get there again. I know I will. I just don't know why I can't just simply get myself to DO it right now. :-P