I think that is what I did today. There are so many Cardio Party versions, I get them confused. But I think that is the one. It was fun, but at the same time, I felt like my heart still wasn't into "fun". I was just going through the motions. But to watch Chalene and the gang doing their workout just didn't seem to be as dreary as watching Tony and his kids in "the black room" as my son puts it for the background of the X workouts. Watching Chalene and her bright colors was just a bit more cheery.
Plus, I don't feel the desire to "Bring it" the way the X demands. But I do hope the intensity will be back by next week. This morning was the first morning that I didn't have to DRAG the kids out of bed, and so they seem to getting back into the rhythm of our normality, and I'm hoping that I can get back on track soon after them. I do feel the urge to MOVE, just not the urge to push as hard as the X requires. So Turbo Jam it was for today... something a bit more "fun" although a NAP sounds more fun in reality.
:-P
Food-wise, I vacillate. From wanting to eat every junky carb in sight, or picking up a nasty burger and fries before coming home from wherever because I'm too lazy to cook. Or drowning myself in a box of chocolates. And then other times, I am not hungry. Not feeling like eating because I don't know what I want. And then I might find my "good side" and end up with a piece of broiled salmon and steamed broccoli. Or something else fairly healthy. Followed by some chocolate. ;-) But not alot. So overall, it's a screwy food attitude and a screwy approach... but in the end, I feel like I'm still doing okay. Again- not great, but not entirely horrid, either. My desires are wanting to be horrid, but my appetite keeps me from actually eating alot. So I find myself landing somewhere in between.
I know for a fact that I'm not drinking enough water though, because I'm consuming too much coffee. I need to bump up the water intake by alot, especially to make sure I compensate for the amount of coffee, in addition to drinking the daily requirements of water anyway.
Eating this weekend might not be great... company is coming, which means eating out. But I think it'll still even out okay the way it usually does.
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I *heart* Turbo Jam - even though I feel like a completely uncoordinated fool when I do those workouts most of the time! LOL
I can totally understand your feelings of "going through the motions" - things are not easy right now and you are dealing with some "grieving" on a very real level.
Do what you can. And forget the rest.
(((((HUGS))))))
Thanks Jeanne, for all your cheers! I feel like I'm barely hanging on some days. But I'm trying to still keep up.. and hopefully it'll all still work out okay in the end. Not like there's an "end" to my workouts, but the end of the scheduled X days. I'm adding some days to the initial finish date, to make up for the missed days. So now it'll be more like mid-April instead of April Fool's Day when I officially do the measurements again.
Time to try to salvage the past 2 weeks... I hope!
~TuxBaby
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